Recently I made a really cool game. I mean, just a tetris clone which is not even that good. But it was a really fun ~3 day project. Check it out: here. Yeah, as simple as it is it was just really fun and furfillyng to actually make it so I posted it.
Ah also, cool picture from yesterday...
This is just a script for post I wrote late at night, I haven't checked it now before posting it... It may be unclear or could have errors which will be fixed in future.
"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around every once in a while; you could miss it."
I recently heard this quote and accidentally, I just kinda felt it last night; I almost never go anywhere by foot. For as long as I can remember, I was always looking for some sort of transport, not because of laziness, but for fun. I've loved riding my bike as a kid, had a penny board and roller skates. In high school I firstly used a bus but quickly transitioned to an electric scooter. Even after getting my driver's license, I bought an MTB and loved it...
Now having a motorcycle, bike, car, skateboard... It's almost impossible to not enjoy at least one of those every day, and I love it!
Tonight was different, though, kind of unplanned; I had to go home by foot. I put on my headphones and set my playlist to shuffle. I just randomly got a few really good synthwave songs in a row despite my diverse library of many genres. It was just so good, maybe even too good; it gave me time to think... This feeling, indescribable... It was quite cold, but it wasn't, it was really comfortable..., but cold. There was some wind as well, too weak to be a hassle but just enough to feel it. It wasn't too late yet everything was so quiet...
Comfortable cold, wind, and the quiet. A nervous night.
It randomly reminded me of riding my skateboard on late summer nights at the end of high school for some reason... And as cheesy as all this sounds, the feeling was real; it sounds poetic, but I felt it. Then this thought popped into my head. I'm always in a hurry, always need to get somewhere, always need to do something. Even when 'chilling,' I'm going fast, thinking about what I need to do, taking a car instead of a bike because 'it's faster...' so I get somewhere quicker to do something that I need to do to not waste my limited time that's going away faster than I want it to. Even after quitting my job recently and saying I'll slow down a bit, have more time, and just chill, well, I definitely have much more time, and it's so good. I'm really enjoying it, but despite trying to convince myself..., I haven't really slowed down, and I just realized that.
I'm doing all the things I ever wanted, things I didn't have enough time for before, and I'm so happy about it. I always try to make the most of my day, be productive every second, and that's great; my time management skills are a thing to be discussed here, but that's not important right now. The point is that I'm still making the same mistake...
It's the invisible stress, a thing making us uncomfortable, angry, or sad, without any obvious signs... It clouds our vision so we don't see it. I don't see it right now because I'm free; I do what I want to do, but then I forget the reason why I want to do it. It's because even when I'm not doing it, I'm thinking about it. But if I just chase it for the sake of not missing it and don't allow myself to wonder about all the cool things I want to do in life, well, why do I even want to do them?
I used to think that if I don't do it, I'm missing it, but it's the opposite... Focusing so much on always doing what you want and enjoy makes you really forget to actually appreciate even being able to do any of it. Now, I'm not saying not to try; most of the time, you need to force yourself to go out, to do, and to get what you want; otherwise, you will probably spend your life sitting in front of your stupid phone.
What I'm saying is stop focusing so much on chasing dreams without leaving any time to enjoy the chase.
It may be hard, and this could be just an empty promise to myself, but I should really try to slow down again, at least for a little bit.
And It's already 2025, I don't have something specific to write about, but just wanted to write something. Anyway I'm happy with 2024., It was just an amazing year, I got my motorcycle licence, baught my first motorcycle, passed requred exam in Croatia to be able to enroll in collage, and succesfully enrolled in IT. Actually I spent a ton of time at work, but I quit at the end of november and have been enjoying collage since. I finally started working a lot more on my projects and even though results are not really visible yet hopefully I will have something cool to show soon...
Well time files, literally.. even though I'm only turning 22 this year, I just wanna go back to beeing 16 and doing stupid shit with no worries. Sice that is not possible my goals for 2025 are to just enjoy life more, work less; try to forget about the past and enjoy the present since one day I'll be remembering these moments wanting to go back, just like I'm doing right now... I guess I'll also try to get a summer job that is in IT field, that would be soo cool...
I'm finally writing again, as you can see in last post I have again completely changed how this page works, probably for the 100th time. Articles are no longer stored in database, but as markdown files in git repo which are then dinamically rendered server side to this page. In future I will probabli make it prerender first 10 or so articles and then load more as you scroll, but not not... Anyway its achtually more simple than ever for me to write now so hopefully I will finaly write more lol, also I don't work anymore so I have much more time...
I’m finally writing again! As you can not see, I’ve completely changed backend for this website again. Pretty sure this is like the 100th time or something. Now instead of having articles in database, I just save them as markdown files in a Git repo, and they get rendered on the server to create static page. In the future, I will make it prerender first 10 posts or whatever and then load more when you scroll, but for now this works... It’s never been easier for me to write, so hopefully, I’ll actually keep up with it this time. Also, I don’t work anymore, so I’ve got way more time now.
My last day of work was November 30th, 2024, and I’m still kinda getting used to not having to wake up early and go to work every day. Lately, I’ve just been enjoying life—going to college, doing Advent of Code, and messing around with side projects. This year, I really wanna finish AoC. Last year, I didn’t even bother trying because I was too busy, and in 2022, I gave up after just a few days. So far this year, the only day that was really hard was Day 9, Part 2. Some of my solutions are trash, but nothing’s been too hard yet.
I got some 50/50 tires for my motorcycle and took it off-road. I went on some simple gravel roads and even hit up a motocross track. Obviously, I wasn’t doing any jumps or crazy stuff, but just riding over the bumps and obstacles was so much fun. I can’t even explain how good it felt. From now on, I think I’m gonna lean way more into off-road and adventure riding. Supermoto on the road is awesome, but off-road is just on another level.
This is it for now... I will post some pictures of my bike soon...
This is just a test!
If you're reading this hopefully it means that I've successfully setup CI/CD with github workflows and docker for deploying this to my raspberry PI. Will write more soon... Gotta go!
Actually I baught it maybe even a month ago but just didn't write about it here. Anyway im writing now. It's a 2016 Yamaha WR 125 X, and It's Amazing!!! Not the fastest one but still soo much fun, it's so light and small, like a toy. I already did some mods, underbar mirrors, tailtidy and it looks sick now! Here are some pictures:
Holly shit, this still feels unreal but I'm actually going to collage. Anyway in Croatia you need to pass like a national exam thing at the end of highschool (Državna matura) and I failed Croatian on that exam. I was quite a bad student back in highschool and especially in croatian language which I barely passed every year. That's why I failed in the first place and after that I kind of just never really thought about collage since I didn't think I could do it; pass croatian language exam...
After listening to all the cool things my friends in IT collage are learning I couldn't resist any more and just had to fucking do it. I contacted a proffesor from my highschool and he helped me soo much, after few months of learning, I passed the exam and was able to enroll in almost any collage in Croatia. I chose IT in Zadar and somehow actually had good enough grades to get in.
I still don't think I can express how hyped I am right now and I still can't belive that I did it, I passed the exam and got into collage. Though it starts in October so I'll need to wait a bit now which is kind of anoyng...
Though waiting won't be boring for sure because I also got a motorcycle licence and will soon get my first motorcycle!
Damn, everything is so perfect now that I just don't know what to say... Like all the little pieces fell right into theyr place now after soo much struggling, stress and hard work...
Also its soooo cool that I'm not alone on this journey, my beautifull girlfriend is with me too for well over a year at this point, btw.. she will be going to the same collage with me now.
:)
Last weekend I finaly finished my first FPV Wing build. AtomRC Dolphin. I went to Nin to fly it but I fucked up autolaunch and crashed it. Burned the motor... I had fun flying my drone tho; Hopefully I will post here again when I fix the wing and fly it.
Ugh,.. soo much has happened since I last wrote here, FUCK, I forgot to write.. I mean, I really didn't have much time and it seamed like I had nothing interesting to write about but I guess I do. Not gonna wirite today tho.. hopefully this week..
Anyway I got my Motorcycle licence!
Soo, I don't have much to write today, but I just wanted to write something...
The last few weeks have been a bit harsh, but it's gettin better.
Just going for a bike ride alone without anything but my bike is really nice, fuck.. Just riding.. no phone, no backpack, water, music, nothin... Just riding, jumping, chillin on the waterfront, lookin at the sunset... Something I'll fucking miss soo much one day... I'm soo happy that I can enjoy it now... I'm soooo fucking happy that I have my bike; sometimes it just makes the most boring commute insanely fun... Some depressing day? Just a quick ride can make you escape reality for a bit better than any movie, anime, alcohol or whatever... (I don't drink btw, but a lot of people use alcohol, drugs..., for this shit... though riding is just infinately better solution).
Anyway, this is a cute image of my girlfriend and me that she drew.
I recently played Doki Doki Literature Club, so I wrote this:
I'm sorry for pushing you away, when all you tried to do was help me.
I'm sorry for turning everyone against you, when all you tried to do was warn me.
I’m sorry for neglecting your cries for help, when love was all you sought.
I'm sorry for not beeing ready, to return the immense ammount of love, Offered to me, from you.
And even thugh I knew, what I wasn't supposed to do, with Natuki making cupcakes, instead of beeing with you.
And not just cupcakes, but art or music, playing games..., you know it all.
So, I’m sorry, I'm sorry it wasn't you.
Despite all of that, after all the pain I put you through, after all the nightmares, I inflicted upon you.
You still tried..., and waited… Waited patiently in the rain cold, Waited patiently for me to wake up.
But I didn't care, I didn't even try.
In the end, Thanks to all you've done, I gained a lot. But you?, You paied the price.
And then, after all of that. I just left you hanging."
Anyway, I really wanted to write for the past few months, BUT... Ever since I migrated my site to a new VPS and added Spring Boot backend, articles weren't hardcoded in HTML anymore, they were stored in a database. And me being me, I didn't create UI, or endpoint for adding new articles and I definitely wasn't going to be manually creating and inserting articles in DB. So as fucking stupid as it is I literally just wasn't posting anything even though I wanted, because the only way was directly inserting data in a DB and ofc I was too lazy for that.
Well, ofc I finally made admin page, and API endpoint so now I can finally write and post easely.
Hmmm, thing is I wasn't sure how to make authentication, I was considering many different approaches and I even made few demos, but never finished them... I was just experimenting, doing and redoing... And now finally I did it. I am using KeyCloak Oauth2 server for auth and reason for it is that I have much bigger plans for the future, I'll make a website that will also be using this Oauth2 server for auth. Won't talk about it much for now though.\n\nSo I think this is it for now, just a short update, because from now on I will hopefully be writing a lot more."
So I started writing my website in Spring Boot and got a dedicated VPS for hosting. I am really tired today, I've been working almost an entiry day so I am not going to write much today. But in few days I will maybe write more about all this; subpages, current projects and this website... Might actually come back to Mystic Gemstones to actually release first alpha or someting like that. That's it for today.
ps.
I HATE SQL... actually I am getting a familiar with it slowly so its ok... I hated it so much when started using it; MongoDB ftw!
I haven't been posting much, but I've been doing a lot.
Currently, I'm working on a secret project in Spring Boot; I can't talk about it yet, but potentially it could be a website with a lot of users that actually earns me some passive money. Anyway, besides that, I am learning Spring Boot since I am quite comfy with Java now. Also, I'd say I have a decent knowledge of HTML and CSS now and am starting to get familiar with Java Script. I still don't know much about databases, but that is something I am looking to learn in the future. Basically, I'll be familiar with Java and Spring Boot, as well as HTML, CSS, Java Script, SQL, and MongoDB, which is pretty cool.
Also, I started a project in Angular. Though I am not currently planning to learn Angular, I used this chance to get familiar with it and work on my Angular project together with my friend who has to make an Angular project for college. Basically, it's just a basic, not useful website. Its only purpose is for me to get familiar with Angular. Currently, the project is just an initialized github repo, but hopefully It will be something at the point that you are reading this.
This happened on September 7, but I'm writing it now.
So basically, I was just riding my bike, like I usually do, and all of a sudden I entered a just-burned-down forest... I have no fucking idea how I didn't see it earlier but it was just like.. everything normal, and then just a straight line separating normal from burned down. The ground was still soo hot to touch but very wet, and I saw firefighters around 30 meters from me. It was just a feeling you can't describe—I dunno, the smell, the wet but hot ground and the super straight line separating burned-down from not-burned-down.
This article is a mess lol. I was just randomly writing what came to my mind...
Images of custom sticker I made for my new bike... They just look amazing espettially in real life.
Also a part of burned down forest I saw.
Hmhm.. Yesterday I returned from my 3 day trip to Senj, I visited my grandma, who lives there. Though short, the trip was amazing.
I almost wasn't even using my phone. I went to the beach with a book instead of my phone, I only took it when I was on my bike just in case I fail a bunny hop and brake my leg or sm like that, so I can call for help :(... Didn't end up using it tho. Yeah, it was just so relaxing and chill. I realized that it's really not that hard to be outside without a phone. Yeah, sometimes you are like, ahh.. if only I had my phone to take a picture of this or look at a clock or sm like that, but I realized that it is really not that important to know exacly what time it is.. I'm on vacation after all and don't need to be connected with everyone all the time. Also, it makes you think; you see something interesting, enjoy it and remember it so you can talk about it later and not just take a picture and leave. It makes you rely on your memory and instincts instead of GPS and much more. It wasn't boring at all, I will definitely go out without my phone more often from now on. I dunno, it just makes you feel free.. It's literally more fun when you have nothing with you.. no need to worry about anything, just enjoing the moment. This sounds so generic and kind of stupid, I know... everyone is saying like No phone = happy = enjoy moment'n shit like that BUT it really is TRUE.
Images from Senj... Actually image of my bike is from Senj and other one is from Vratnik, a place next to senj.
I'm back again... Finally, everything is returning to normal. I finished renovating my house, work a bit less, and will go on an annual vacation next week. I'm finally getting back to having a little more free time.
I've finally started to go out with my friends more again. I went camping two weeks ago, and it was amazing. I will definitely do it again. Ah, much has happened since my last post, but I haven't been writing much...
I bought a new bike too, a YT Capra MX Core 1. It's insane how much better it is compared to my old nukeproof pulse. Im so happy with it, though I haven't ridden it much yet. I definitely will in the future.
The biggest, best, and most important news is that the middle school friend I was talking about in my last post is now my girlfriend :). I don't know what else to say; she's just so fucking cool, and Im so happy to have her in my life. Also, I had a crush on her when I was like 8-9 years old, so yeah, that's just insane to think about now that I'm 20.
My new YT Capra
Some images from camping on Zrmanja river.
Ah man... I am fucking tierd, don't feel like doing anything anymore, not in a depressing way tho I am still really super happy, it's not that its hard, its just too much. Since my last post, I have hardly had any free time. I got a loan and I've been remodeling my house, I've been working longer hours because the summer season is approaching and there is a lot of work to be done. Though I didn't see my pals a much, I did manage to ride my bike a few times. Despite this, I am not complaining. Obviously, I haven't posted anything here because I've had neither the time nor the interesting storyes and stuff to write about.
But by far the best thing that has happened recently is that I've 'remet' a really fucking cool middleschool friend who I haven't seen in years so I can't not be happy no matter how many shit things happen and how hard life gets.
Just some random pixelart images I made the other day :>
As I said in Doing stuff yesterday, I am back and posting images from tomorrow. I'm not gona write much today it's late so I'll go sleep now. Anyways these are pictures of me, rest of the pictures that I took you can see on Photography.
Java dungeon, rss, photography page bunch of random things done today. Also, rode my Tomos and took some really cool photos but I'll write about that tomorrow, also hopefully edit and poste photos too.
The last few days I've been spending some time in VR; I bought a used Oculus rift CV1 for cheap, so I've been going to VR Chat parties with a friend and playing some beat saber and stuff...
That's it! That's all I have to say for today. :)
Today is such a beautiful spring day, warm but not hot, just a little bit of clouds and no wind...
Literally perfect, so when I woke up in the morning I ate breakfast and went for a bike ride arround the town.
Really chill ride, nothing crazy, just a bit of bunny hopping on sidewalks doing whellies'n stuff like that. And riding arround a park that has really cool dirt trails with trees.
I "completed" my tomos with a friend two days ago. There is still so much to do; we have only just got it almost rideable. The few meters I drove in first gear to test it out because I hadn't even installed a clutch were so much fun.
btw, we started it by pushing it in neutral and then changing into first gear.
When I saw Tomos in my garage after I got home from work today, I had to take it out for a spin. The best decision I've ever made, man; even though I only did two loops around my street and shifted into second gear without a clutch (sorry Tomos, not going to do it again), I felt like I was going 100 km/h, it was so fast and so much fun. It essentially made this Monday the best day and provided me with enough joy to last the entire week. The strangest sentence, but sure, this was just so fun I am definitely going to keep riding motorcycles and I am planning to go get a motorcicle licence now.
Awwww man...
It was absolutely incredible and I was soo bad; I finished last and crashed on the second stage, but for my first race and my first time riding in terrain like this (up until now, I have only ridden on the street and extremely easy beginner trails), I am super happy that I managed to complete all three stages. I will try my best to use experience gained from this race to advance in the next one since I know I can do much much better.
I can't wait to continue this amazing journey, so be sure to check back occasionally for new posts since there will undoubtedly be new posts about all sorts of strange things I do around here.
There is soo much more to write about this but today I am just not creative and don't know what to write so yeea... this is all.
Not sure if I have rights to use this photo of me... Photographer: Marijan photo.
So, since I haven't posted about this here yet, here's a quick summary:
I bought this bike from my friend for super cheap, like 30 bucks or something, and it was so broken and in really bad shape. Everything was so rusted and stuff. I just wanted to restore it for fun, and since it is my first restoration project, I wanted something cheap and simple so I wouldn't have the fear of fucking something up, and this is as cheap and simple as a restoration project can be.
Firstly, I took everything apart to the smallest bolt, and then, part by part, I ground down the rust and put on new paint. BUT.. I didn't do that for every part. I fully restored some parts, including the body, rear shocks, fuel tank, and rear (things that hold the rear wheel), and then when time to slowly start putting it all together came, I realized that the front fork was bent beyond repair, so I had to get a new one. I couldn't find a good one on the used market for a while... until a month ago when I finally got one. And today I decided to temporarily give up on full, 100% perfect restoration and just put it together, even if it doesn't look perfect. I just couldn't wait any longer; I had to put it together for a test ride. It's not ready for a test ride yet though; I need to put on the clutch and chain, and then I can finally test ride it for the very first time.
Sooo, It is assembled and works; only most important parts though, except chain and clutch wire which are not installed yet. Rear breake and a lot more parts are missing. Also lot of parts are not restored yet. But I will definitely continue perfecting it; I will add all missing parts and restore and paint parts that are not currently restored.
For now, I will just have fun on this bike, and as time goes on, I will slowly keep fixing new issues as well as adding missing parts and restored parts that have not yet been restored. And I will definitely keep uploading progress here. Also forgive me for really bad writing of this it's really late; I just want to post this so I can go to sleep.
Thanks for reading :>
Actually, it was not on this day that I drew it; it was February 18, 2023., but since this page didn't exist at that time, I am just posting it now.
Anyway, as I said, this is my first ever attempt at drawing on walls. I've painted with spray cans before, but I've never actually drawn on walls. Considering this, I am really proud and happy with how this turned out; obviously, it's not a great graffiti piece, but to me, it's amazing, and it was so much fun to make it. I just listened to loud music in an old abandoned building while spraying on walls; don't know why, but it's just so relaxing and fun that it makes you forget about reality and feel like a kid again.
First "post?" or whatever this is. Pretty cool I guess. Today I just made some changes to the website mostly index page and not design changes but html and css rewrite; it is now much more readable.
I just hope that I will continue writing here at least sometimes so that one day in the future I will be able to come back to this and read all the old fun memories.